Monday, April 23, 2012

30 BLoGs in 30 DaYs Day 3. Describe Relationship with Parents

Day 3. Describe your Relationship with Parents

This is a tough one! I am 26 now, so my relationship with my parents have become farther and fewer moments right now! Kind of a sad thing but I'm sure when Randall and I have our first lil one my mom will be right by my side or she better be at least because I am gonna need help!

My Mom

I love my mom. She is so beautiful to me, I want to look like her when I am her age. She doesn't know she is beautiful though and shruggs it off when I tell her. She insist on acting like she is 65 but I literally have friends her age! (She is only 43!) She sees everything from a 65 year olds point of view and for that we butt heads on a good number of issues. She is all about the Church of God being the only church she has faith in nowadays, and so we don't get on a lot of issues about politics or religion. Actually when she does put her 2 cents in about these issues they are so far and irrelevant from me that it is almost comical.

My mother had me when she was 18! She had to grow up very fast and for that I have the upmost respect for her. She did a really good job, I never went without much and she made sure we were in church 3 times a week no excuses! I am actually very thankful for that, I became a dedicated Christian at the age of 13 and really developed a lot of knowledge about the Word. And she was strict!! I was a pretty good teenager so she was less strict on me than my sister.

But anyways to the point, our relationship is good nowadays. My mom gives me enough space (a lil more than I would like) but when we do finally get to see each other, we laugh and talk and gossip very easily. I look up to her and whenever I am making a big decision in my life, if I have her blessing, I feel at ease about it. She has a lot of wisdom when it comes to living life and I still have a lot to learn from her.

My Dad

I really don't even know where to start with this one. Especially this past year I have had such mixed emotions toward him. If it weren't for my Faith, I don't even know if we would have a relationship right now. My dad has definetly wrestled a lot of his own demons, and more times than once he lost to them. He and my mom had a tumultuous on and off again relationship till I was 7. From as long as I could remember he had a drinking and drug problem. From 7 to 9 I really don't remember he at all in my life. I think he was running from child support or something but for some reason, he was not there. When I was 9 he met my step mom and they packed up and moved to PA. and still lived there today. I had hard feelings toward him till I was 13.

When I gave my heart to the Lord, I really felt lead to forgive my father though. It was a very hard thing to do for me but I don't think that I could ever get to a good spiritual level with God unless I had done so. There is sooo much power in Forgiving someone. I don't know how to explain it but I still remember the night I decided to do that and it was like there was a weight lifted off my shoulders.

After that, I made it a point to have a relationship with him. I love my dad and at the end of the day even if he does the most idiotic thing there is, then I still love him because that is what family does. He does make up half my DNA and a lot of personality traits must come from him. I still make it a point to go see him every summer and we get in deep descussions a lot, even more so than I have with my mom. My dad doesn't believe in anything, I don't think he has actually took the time to find God, but I hope that my unconditional love I have for him mirrors just a shadow of the love that God has for him and he sees it one day. Until then I will call him ever so often and visit him.

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