Sunday, April 22, 2012

3o BLoGs in 30 DaYs/day 2: 3 legitimate fears

3 Legitimate Fears

If you know me pretty well then you know of at least 2 of these legitimate fears. And just to warn you the second one is pretty gruesome.

Snakes being my probably ultimate physical one. It's the one fear that will make me scream like a little girl if I see one. I don't know how people can keep snakes for pets or even pick them up. Everything about them gives me the heebe geebes. If I am doing an outdoor activity and someone sees a snake, I am pretty much done with being outdoors for the day. Hopefully I can just quit worrying about them so much one day but for now snakes pretty much sum up my greatest physical fear.

Second is vomit. There is an actual name for this phobia it is Emetophobia, and it's pretty common. I rarely have to vomit but when I do it is drama!! lol, if I feel that wave of nausea coming on, I will sit in a fetal position and not move practically all night if I have to, just to keep myself from doing it. I think I developed this phobia when I was about 5 years old. I was at my baby sitter's house and was sick with chicken pox. They were giving me children's grape tylenol pills to help the fever and I loved them! So when my babysitter wasn't looking I got into the bottle and ate ALL the pills! My babysitter was freaking out and called my mom, and my mom said to stick her finger down my throat and make me vomit them out. I won't go into details but needless to say it was pretty traumatizing and now I despise throwing up.
Also, if someone else is vomiting or if there is vomit in a room, I will try and get as far as I possibly can from that stuff.
Cleaning up kids from throwing up all night is one thing I am dreading about being a mother one day, but my little doggie, Sammie, is helping me with that one. One day, I came home early from work and he had thrown up 8 different piles!! On the couch too!! I called Randall asking if he could come home early but when I realized that wasn't going to happen, I picked it up all by myself! I felt really accomplished that day!

And lastly, losing Randall in a freak accident is my last fear. This fear is a little harder to write about and sits quite close to home for me. Randall has practically been around almost half my life and really the only constant male in it. He is my comfort! It is the one fear that makes me sit and worry and naws at me. Of course, I'm scared of losing my other close friends and family, as well, but I really would be a wreck if anything ever happened to my husband. I am pretty depend on him, probably a little more than I should be. I think this fear was developed when I was 15 and I seen my older sister's serious boyfriend get in a car wreck and pass away. I was dating Randall at the time, it really gave me some issues. I was scared to get close to Randall for a while after that for fear that could happen to him and I would lose it. I am so grateful that fear did not keep me from letting him in my life and loving him wholeheartedly though.

I am not a fearful person and these fears are pretty small compared to a lot of people's fears and I am grateful for that. I know that even if these fears come up, they are not the end of the world and even if the worst of my fears came to pass (#3) I still have Faith that life goes on and the Lord takes care of me. So there you go my 3 LITTLE legitimate fears.

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