Thursday, June 25, 2015

Systems




I think I’d be lying if I said transgender people don’t scare me a little bit. Why? Because they take me from my system of shoulds and oughts and put gray areas in my easy categorical systems. 
But then I think: doesn’t love do the same? Doesn’t love rise above our categories of rights and shoulds and laws. Making the dominant law followers of systems leveled out with the rest of us? Yes, it does. How? Righteousness is not earned by being the most “Christian” or “Holy” or more right. Righteousness is earned by following the love laws. They are meant to take us out of our systems by loving the ppl we have a right not to love and saying “No you still have to love NO MATTER WHAT! And you have to rethink what is right for the sake of love. Over and over again.”
This is what made Jesus so controversial and still does to this day. Heck I’m pretty sure if he stopped by and decided to roam the Earth like before, we’d just crucify him again. Why? Because instead of following Love we revert back to our primitive systems of right and wrong and someone who demands more than our assurance of these “right” systems with a scapegoat. Mirroring blame on ourselves as much as others, well that becomes blasphemous to our eyes and our egos.
Jesus’ freedoms in the love laws are actually harder to measure up to than any right/wrongs we try to label. They will always make more demands on the love follower than the rule followers any day. If the Jesus you follow doesn’t keep yourself in check more than you do of others than you might not be following the right Jesus. 
If the Jesus you follow isn’t being scapegoated because he has a hard time fitting into others “systems” then I say you’re definitely not following the correct Jesus. He will always demand more than we are willing to give to shape us to be more like Him! 
It’s not going to be the fear of Hell fire that makes you more righteous but the deep purifying of selfless love that demands everything even our life sometimes that is made of righteousness. For perfected Love has no time to even worry about fears. It’s too busy making us rethink everything in light of the only perfected one of Love: Jesus.
Okay, you don’t measure up to righteousness then? Neither do I. And neither does anyone else but Jesus. This is the Good News of the Gospel. We have a way out of our systems. It’s not religion and it’s not laws. It’s following blindly to Jesus commands of Love even though they make grey areas in our already neatly categorized life. 
The gospel is beautiful and compelling enough to cover those gray areas. As I grew up, I always heard Jesus saves us from our sins but I thought that was more nuanced and b/c I professed in being a Christian. That my sins were some how lighter and not as heavy as others.
Now I know HOW he saves us from sin. It’s from our systems religious and political. It’s the giving back of the apple to the serpent and relying on God's Love to save us out of darkness. Not our own understanding! It’s the relying on the Holy Spirit to convict others and humbly realizing that even though we ate the fruit we still don’t know right from wrong without love’s sight.  It's the humble realization that God knows more about others than we do and the Holy Spirit always finds you no matter what.
When I finally found out just how Jesus saves us from our systems and our comfort zones, it was very disconcerting lol.  I stayed up for days.  Knowing I couldn't rely what I thought was right.  I had to rely on what Love told me was right, and most of the time I had been wrong.  I claimed Love but lacked understanding and compassion, especially for other.  And I kept thinking "This can't be right." But you can't unopen your eyes.  Jesus spoke and he uttered the secrets of the foundations of the world.  He and the prophets spoke in poetry because these things are not easily understood by our hearts.  Parables constructed to give us over and over again a different level of changing we need.  (And that's what I call good art, period!)
He critiqued what our societies are built on which is blood.  Cain was the first person to go out and start a society.  It's from the very beginning and yet here we are thousands of years later and we still want to put our faith more on systems of policy and right/wrong rather than Jesus' demands of never ending love.  Which do you put more faith in?

"That it might be fulfilled which was spoken by the prophet, saying, I will open my mouth in parables; I will utter things which have been kept secret from the foundation of the world." Matthew 13:35
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will."  Romans 12:2